Erin's Heart

Trini's last minute pics

We were walking through the mall and Trinity said she wanted to take pictures. So this is what came of them; a little attitude, a little funk and a beautiful little girl. She is not a baby anymore and she will tell you too. I think she is two going on ten.

Sunday...Oh Sunday

I do not know about you but I wake up Sunday morning most of the time thinking yes church: Friends, Fellowship, good Food, good teaching and good worship. Then I get out of bed! It all begins I swear Satan is on attack on Sunday or God wants to see how much I will go through to spend time with him and only him. I have been struggling lately with social anxiety. Yes being around people. Which is odd because God has me in the mix with people. I am not making sense of any of it. This blog probably makes no sense. It just seems that Sunday is even worse. He put me right next to my mother in law yesterday at church with no husband and no best friend both of which are usually right by my side. Did I mention I really do not like my mother in law. She is mean to me and I do not like her. Then Neal begins to preach about loving our enemy. I am sitting next to enemy number 1 with no one to turn to but God. The anxiety is coming back just thinking about it. I guess my whole point is Sundays are hard for me lately so please do not take it personal if I did not notice you. If anyone has any advice I am up for anything right now. I think.

Two things I love...

For those of you who know me you know I LOVE TO SHOP! I do not even have to spend money to enjoy shopping. When I turned 13 my mom pulled me out of school for the day and taught me how to shop til you drop. We totally shopped that day. You do not even have to spend a lot of money to shop til you drop. Marshalls and Ross are two of my favorite stores. On the other spectrum Nordstrom is my total favorite. You can find everything there for every occasion. Including a Brady Bunch dress for no occasion just because she is cute. Yes we gave her a name. Last night I got to spend time with two of my favorite things shopping and my best friend. It was great! We had fun! Thak you so much for spending time with me Kim! Shopping, definetly one thing we have in common.

Not that time of the month

My husband likes to ask me if it is that time of the month when I am emotional. Thinking but not really wanting to talk. When I feel out of touch and streched to my ends. Well I am not PMSing now. No really, but for some reason I feel out of touch, uneasy, emotional as all get up and and most of all distracted. As I mentioned before I am not PMSing. I guess this is just to let all you guys out there know we even have these feelings other times of the month as well.  I think guys PMS too. Really there are times I know I better not go near Jason. The kids and I kind of hang out waiting. He gets super touchy. So even though God didn't bless them with the rest of it (cramps, bloating, pain) they still get moody. They are even worse I think. Don't take it personal guys just a little payback I guess.

Sleeping Solo

So Jason and I will be married five years now and together eight we lived together before marriage and when we weren't living we stayed over a lot. Not saying it was ok but we did. So I have pretty much had a bed partner by my side for eight years now... which leads me to this blog. He is working tonight Aargh! I miss having him next to me. I always sleep like crap when he is not there. He says the same when I am away at seminars. So answer me this one question are we the only loony ones who can't sleep without there other half?

I have been.....

I have not posted in a while so I have a lot to tell. Since my last post i have done birthday stuff with my best friend. My birthday is in march and since March is in the middle of tax season and I am a tax preparer I am pretty much not able to do anything for my birthday in march. So my husband has learned that gift cards work best. He got me a gift card this year to Glen Ivy. He also got me a gift card for a friend. So we celebrated her birthday and kind of mine in the same day. It was fun! The week went on and we had our normal routine and then on Friday I watched one kid in the morn and another kid in the eve. It was fun the kids had some one to play with during the day and Alyssa, Dawn and I went to dinner and shopping at Tiffany's in the eve. While the guys went to watch Talledega Nights. Jason and I decided on Friday to renew our vows for our five year in November. Keep looking for details on Vow Renewal. So that was a busy day. Saturday we relaxed with no kids in the morn did moving and packing in that afternoon and more birthday dinner in the Eve. Sunday church and back to Routine. i am now to today where I am typing real quick before I start to clean, take Logan to the dentist for more fillings and making phone calls. It has been eventful and I did not realize how much I had to talk about until I started to type. More to come....

This is so true!!!

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Things I would like to do before I die...

Open a abused womens and childrens home

Adopt a child from foster care

See my grandkids kids

Get my CPA or accounting degree

Remarry my husband in a honorable ceremony to God on the beach

Pray with my kids to accept God and see them be baptized

Write a book

Write a book of poems with lots of peoples work as well as my own

Learn to surf

Travel to Ireland, Russia, Germany, Brazil, Australia, Alaska with my family, I want to go back to the cabing I grew up in, in Palmer, Alaska

Swim with dolphins

Go to New York for Christmas

Visit Tiffanys in New York just because

Meet Christina DiMari(this is a new one I love her book Ocean Star)

Meet other woman and children that have been sexually abused and be able to help them though what they have gone through

Retire in a house on the beach playing cards with my husband(I like Laguna and he likes Newport actually one particular house in Newport that we saw an older couple playing cards together on their patio)

Flip investment properties

Be a great accountant like my Dad

Run Dads business when he decides to retire.

Put my kids through college with no loans(I know that is nearly immpossible I can dream anyways right)

Take photography classes( I love taking pictures)

Leasrn to snowboard ( Good so i can ride with my hubby)

Be the best wife, mother, friend and child of God that only he could make me to be.

Forgotten but not lost

Dreams forgotten and a life left behind

Ashamed by my past I let it all go

Embracing the good now & changing the bad

The gifts you gave me before the hurt and pain

I see them now; there they are

Rummaging through the trash

It's all coming back

Hold on tight 'cause here I go

My pen flowing to the sounds of your voice

You have seen it all along

Oh Daddy, My Father, My God

You loved me, You guided me, You carried me through the storm

Watch out world here I come and I am not alone

Logan's first filling

So about a month ago I blogged about how much I hated the dentist; so when I had to take Logan I was definetly not thrilled. I knew he had cavities. Sure enough my kid has cavities 4 to be exact. The funny thing is until he was about 2 1/2 he had never had candy. We did not let him. Who knows the things you come up with when raising your first child. We went today for his first filling I explained all they were going to do and he said "I can do that." He was ready but I ws not. I thought as soon as he sees that big needle he will freak. So we came up with a plan. He closed his eyes like mommy does to relax. It Worked!!!! Long story short Logan breezed his way through his first filling. He did not even flinch when she gave him his shot. No complaining when the novicaine wore off either. I was so proud of him.